Again I discover I’m not as faith filled as I want to be. We drove an hour and a half to be in the totality path for the eclipse yesterday. For a couple of days previous, when my mind was unoccupied, I worried about where we’d find a place to park for a couple of hours, where we might find restrooms, and just how crazy the traffic might be. We found space to park at a lovely nature park, with a restroom, and traffic was maybe ten percent more. Yes, I prayed for these details, but I didn’t possess a confident expectation of provision. At fifty years into a life with Jesus, I know we don’t order up what we want. We make our requests known to Him, with thanksgiving, and we trust He will provide as He sees fit. We trust He’s heard us and is involved in responding. But He might have plans that supersede our requests for comfort and ease. And I really wanted comfort and ease yesterday. So I lost some sleep wishing for a particular response to my prayers. (Yes, I pray for all kinds of details.) I’d have felt more faithful if I’d been able to rest in his provision, whatever it might have been. We know lessons pervade our everyday lives and that learning and growth and deeper trust in His goodness are what God is after. But I’m here to confess I wasn’t interested in growth. I was interested in comfort. Perhaps the growth today is recognizing that sometimes, He wants to give us a beautiful day and everything we ask for. I am grateful and hopeful I’ll trust Him the next time for comfort or a harder lesson and that either can be received peacefully. And, a footnote: No one can convince me that the moon being 400 times smaller and 400 times closer than the sun, thereby enabling the odd experience of a total eclipse is not designed. The Lord bless you and keep you all your days.
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It's ALL by design!
Had a lesson like that myself lately when had to retire old car quickly due to rusting out and too costly to repair. Had all my plans for finding a newer car which fell through due to illness. God came through without my help using my son finding a listing and a more savvy car person taking me to the car, the brand I wanted and price range I set aside years ago. God even sold my old car without any fuss to a husband of a friend who buys old cars for what it was worth. God always provides my needs. Was confused on if this was need or a want but in this day and age and where I live probably more of a need. God is good!